EMOTIONALLY UNAVAILABLE Women

I was praying for a wife and entertained a mess expecting to be blessed……Read this lesson I learned.

Honestly, why you entertain me if you didn’t want me after I told you what I wanted?

Why were you so selfish?

Were you so consumed with the pain someone else is puttin you through that you didn’t see you were setting someone else up to go through what you’re going through now?

Did you hear me when i said i was tired, that i been hurt and didn’t want  to go through that again?

Why’d you go out with me?

Why’d you introduce me to your family?

Why'd you look at me the way you would?

Why’d you let me open up?

Was I just another cute n*gga to show off to your homegirls or distraction because you’re too immature to deal with your own crap?

So because other women want me that means I’ll be ok quicker or easier than someone else who isn’t?

It wasn’t enough that you were eventually honest with me you should’ve just left me alone.

How do I control myself to keep this from happening to me again?

This crap could really mess me up, and for you to just end it with a text about how you’re back with your ex. The one you said was emotionally unavailable. The one that pushed you away. The one that you weren’t even sure was faithful or not? Meanwhile you passed on the same man you asked God to bring you?

God, Honestly what do I do?

I should’ve paid attention to the red flags.

When she told me she sees red flags but she runs towards anyway should’ve let me know right then and there  she lacks the emotional maturity to care for herself let alone me.

When she told me she has no hope in men and lacked to see the role she plays in her own repetitive behavior is when I should’ve known.

I brought this on myself.

I was too intoxicated by her honesty to see and address the weight of her toxic words.

You had a bible verse in your bio bro, did you even read it??

I ain’t even like you like that at first I just thought you were fine.

God honestly though I appreciate this because I could do better. Also this now taught me a lesson. I shouldn’t entertain someone I knew at first wasn’t good for me, it’ll keep me from falling for someone I didn't really want anyway (which would’ve  been a bigger problem in the future). This teaches me not to just drag someone along because I don’t know how to deal with my own pain, it sucks being on the other end of that.. These things called emotions are real not only should I not ignore them but I shouldn’t play with them either. They may not run the show but they’re definitely worthy of respect.