Is God a liar?

A dialogue with God

I question if God knows what he’s doing or if the things he’s said to me intimately were true. He told me I was a leader, I was chosen, I was special, I was a conqueror, I was rich, and I was a new creation. How am I a leader when no one follows me? How am I chosen when I am still overlooked? Am I special when the world says I’m insignificant? How am I a conqueror when I’m still struggling? How am I rich when I don’t have much? How am I a new creation when I still see the old me? And he takes charge often. I experience these truths frequently. Can two realities coexist? Did you lie, or was I hearing things? Is it my fault? Am I doing something wrong? Why am I not entirely whole, healed, and prospering yet? When will things change for good?

How dare you question how much I love you? How dare you question my character? You ask if I’m a liar when you are barely even honest with yourself. You are ignorant. Can’t you see all the ones you influence on the daily? You don’t see the lives you’ve impacted thus far, and that’s while you can barely lead yourself, but you’re asking about leading more? Who is overlooking you? Who else are you looking to tell you that you’re special? All that matters is what you believe despite how you feel. If I said it, that’s it. Instead of continuously looking for that in others, why not tell yourself it’s true and move forward? Of course, the world says you’re insignificant. You belong to me, not them. You’re not from here. You’re from me. 

In regards to being a conqueror, you realize that struggling doesn’t mean your losing, right? It means you’re still fighting. You’re changing as fast as you can, but you need to love you in the process, not the idea of who you think you’re becoming. You’re 30 years old, but your relationship with yourself is a lil more than 5 years old give yourself time. Can’t you see all I’ve done for you and how much you’ve done for yourself? The growth you ask for comes with time, and the blessings require trust. You can trust me, but can I trust you? Relax, work hard, and learn to love where you are now. You’re too hard on yourself. Take care of yourself because I love and trust you with you, my precious and beautiful creation.